IT's time

Whole day didn't enter any class...

Not because im lazy but it's really a need...

Huh?...

It's the time for me to start....

Go..go....go...

I wont stay here and keep waiting...

as i know..i js can prove it by this way..gogogo..

SAY : KAMBATEH to myself....

wait me...

after the scene

Finally out sketch success to make ppl enjoy the whole 20 minutes..isn't??( i think so)

Really happy that our effort had been paid off.....

Since last Wednesday,7 of us were busying prepared the slides, audio system, sound effect, animation and oso our custom and props...fuyoh..seems like a huge project....

For others it might not be..but for us..it is...as maybe all of us lack of experience and we really want to make it perfect in every part and every scene.....especially their leader..(ME)...wakakka...

I couldn't deny that sometimes i really use to cannot tolerate with those who are not discipline in the process......although the sketch it's sound like a simple acting process..But i really hope all of us might gathered our strength and the spirit together..I want make it..Not like competition but at least it's our assignment....Who knows maybe this is our 1st and the last time for us to act with friends....

the process was really and absolutely complicated...dont wanna to speak about it.....

BUT finally we got the best performance since this two week in Miss Chan hand.....maybe others will be better than us in this coming week...but at least....we be the best before...

actually be the best or not is not so important for us..But at least...we have tried it before....

It's so amazing my friends....able to be impromptu in the sketch...add in some unexpected amazing scene.....(As the part we plan to make ppl laugh they did not but the normal part the audience laugh...how weird it is?)

Whatever ...It's finally come to another pit stop in my life and it's the time for me to study now....

Dear team mates.....appreciate the efforts and commitment and really sorry that i keep scolding some of you because of the sketch..you really let me to learn a lot from you all......

And also thanks for the supportive supporters for our team...as we never expect so many of you all come to support untill not enough audience seat and not enough standing place....

haha

after the scene

Finally out sketch success to make ppl enjoy the whole 20 minutes..isn't??( i think so)

Really happy that our effort had been paid off.....

Since last Wednesday,7 of us were busying prepared the slides, audio system, sound effect, animation and oso our custom and props...fuyoh..seems like a huge project....

For others it might not be..but for us..it is...as maybe all of us lack of experience and we really want to make it perfect in every part and every scene.....especially their leader..(ME)...wakakka...

I couldn't deny that sometimes i really use to cannot tolerate with those who are not discipline in the process......although the sketch it's sound like a simple acting process..But i really hope all of us might gathered our strength and the spirit together..I want make it..Not like competition but at least it's our assignment....Who knows maybe this is our 1st and the last time for us to act with friends....

the process was really and absolutely complicated...dont wanna to speak about it.....

BUT finally we got the best performance since this two week in Miss Chan hand.....maybe others will be better than us in this coming week...but at least....we be the best before...

actually be the best or not is not so important for us..But at least...we have tried it before....

It's so amazing my friends....able to be impromptu in the sketch...add in some unexpected amazing scene.....(As the part we plan to make ppl laugh they did not but the normal part the audience laugh...how weird it is?)

Whatever ...It's finally come to another pit stop in my life and it's the time for me to study now....

Dear team mates.....appreciate the efforts and commitment and really sorry that i keep scolding some of you because of the sketch..you really let me to learn a lot from you all......

And also thanks for the supportive supporters for our team...as we never expect so many of you all come to support untill not enough audience seat and not enough standing place....

haha

after the scene

Finally out sketch success to make ppl enjoy the whole 20 minutes..isn't??( i think so)

Really happy that our effort had been paid off.....

Since last Wednesday,7 of us were busying prepared the slides, audio system, sound effect, animation and oso our custom and props...fuyoh..seems like a huge project....

For others it might not be..but for us..it is...as maybe all of us lack of experience and we really want to make it perfect in every part and every scene.....especially their leader..(ME)...wakakka...

I couldn't deny that sometimes i really use to cannot tolerate with those who are not discipline in the process......although the sketch it's sound like a simple acting process..But i really hope all of us might gathered our strength and the spirit together..I want make it..Not like competition but at least it's our assignment....Who knows maybe this is our 1st and the last time for us to act with friends....

the process was really and absolutely complicated...dont wanna to speak about it.....

BUT finally we got the best performance since this two week in Miss Chan hand.....maybe others will be better than us in this coming week...but at least....we be the best before...

actually be the best or not is not so important for us..But at least...we have tried it before....

It's so amazing my friends....able to be impromptu in the sketch...add in some unexpected amazing scene.....(As the part we plan to make ppl laugh they did not but the normal part the audience laugh...how weird it is?)

Whatever ...It's finally come to another pit stop in my life and it's the time for me to study now....

Dear team mates.....appreciate the efforts and commitment and really sorry that i keep scolding some of you because of the sketch..you really let me to learn a lot from you all......

And also thanks for the supportive supporters for our team...as we never expect so many of you all come to support untill not enough audience seat and not enough standing place....

haha

another scene

Since tuesday..after the midterm test..my group (as i'm a leader)keep practise our EcS Sketch ass we gonna perform=present it on the coming monday...oh ya man....damn fast...

Well, i dunno where my bad tempered be...its sound good as i manage to control it well....

I really learn a lot from my member...especially my great assistant YQ.....

I oso really love my cute cute zheng as she is really a fantastic member.....

Oso not forget YZ, YX,Ps....and a quite headache person CP as he really dunno how to act,how to sing and how to dance....Not im looking down upon him but he is that kind of !^#&)#$)@($as he cant really accept ppl advise.....MAN, not solo show you know!!!....

Luckily i got manage my mood today...When i talk to them i almost burst into my tears as i really wish all of us get the best performance.....I wnt it and im sure you all wnt it too....

Another scene from the sketch is now im sitting infront my lappy and as just complete all the props..

tired man...nites

midnight-ing-

cant imagine online so late now....

NOT online till now..it's just online...

wat for??
boring? tired?

im searching myself..huh?!

need some music to relax while complete my organic chemistry revision...

I cant deny that recently i feel stress...never ever felt so stress...I make all ppl around me start to worried me...M i tat kinda of bad girl??

hopefully not...

Actually i just wnt to express my feeling....but seems like nobody wish to listen....

At this moment and this kind of situation...usually..i will....CRY!!!....

Im that kind of emo....

I miss my parent...miss you..miss GBA..(as im listening our family song at this moment)..miss minyen and eethong

..

miss a lot and a lot...

I felt like im very close to you all but sometimes seems like very far,,...

hopeless and helpless now....

I just wanna do my best..( maybe this trimester i put a lot of efforts...much more compared to last trimester.....BUT it seems like none of a sweety fruit bear now..)

I just will try to get it as sweet as possible....

GUYS....wait and see...

* im always putting a high expectation in that matter if i really do my best!!

悲惨

今天的物理考试，只能说，准备不足。。。

很不甘心。。。其实我准备自认足够了。。因为我答错的都是原本会了的。。。

我觉得自己很无能！！！！

moody...

I try to be positive thinking but its really hard...
sometimes just feel like im not tat kinda of ppl who easily forgive my self...

With all mistakes and stupid faults..
I wish to know when will all sorts of these come to a stop???
Hope it will stop by today and start everything smooth and well tomorrow...

Even i felt that im useless but it cant be as i know that how important of my mind setting is??

Right now, struggle in between the beginning and the end point, stunt half way with no way out...

With the efforts and support...it's time for me to arise...

searching the real meaning of life....every stage and every steps....i will slow down my pace and even creep........
By making everything clear...It should and it must be continue....

Hopefully everyday is my nice day...


*sorry to hear that my boss house was being flooded...sorry cant help.....=.=

让掌声为勇敢，坚强的你响起

早上，除了因为呈现+考试带着紧张的心情上学外，

其实，昨夜都侧夜难眠。。

不仅仅我，好多人都这样。。。

请你不要觉得过意不去，或许我们只是想多陪陪你，时时刻刻都为你加油，打气。。

有人说，没心情上学，有人说，很愤怒

有人说，因为不能回去而失落。。

不管有人再怎么说，我们都是一样的，你也一样吧。。。

我们好希望能够跟你一同分担所有的事，这一切的一切，所有的所有。。

分分秒秒，都盼望着，期待着。。

不管歹徒的生与死，

只要你开开心心，健健康康的站起来，

与我们再次为青春而奋斗，为理想而前进。。

你，听到了吧？

妈妈的呼唤，家人的期盼，同学的盼望，所有人的祝福，

你都收到了吧。。。

对，没错，你收到了。。。

你，回复了。。

哪怕只是动动手指，睁开眼睛，

每个反应都让我们觉得很欣慰。。

你告诉我们，你成功了。。

你告诉我们, 你快到达目标了。。

加油。。。再走多几步，就到了。。

亲爱的朋友，

佩服你的毅力，你的勇气

欣赏你的坚持，你的努力

让我们为你鼓掌，

让掌声为坚强的你响起。。

记得，明天的日出，等着你与我们去欣赏。

就让掌声再次为你响起。。。

wake up fren....

认识你是7岁的事，那时的你是多么的爱撒娇，多么的爱哭。。。

中学的最后两年，又和你同班。。。

一个亭亭玉立的你，还有骂yih hong的那种霸气，我想谁也没办法忘记。。。

如今，你遭遇不幸，在这48小时内，自己承受所有的痛，朋友我们看了心痛，

但，我们并不担心，因为坚强的你，很能挨，我们知道，你会在今天醒过来。。

有时，真恨不得那几个凶手，不得得逞还要加害人一把，让我们最爱的你，受了伤。。

婷，别怕，加油。。不只这48小时，明天，以后每一天，我们每一个人都会陪着你，为你接下来的日子一起加油，一起努力。。

朋友，坚持，知道你情况稍微稳定都很开心。。

婷：再大的风雨，我们都会陪你一起走下去。。。

朋友，坚持，快点醒过来。。。

祝福你，愿佛陀加持

rainny thursday

Im not that kinda of emo..just feel want to write whatever in my deep heart core...

I know that i haven't finish my exam and study is not only for exam...

Revising and revising ...it's just a cycle...It's shouldn't be stop...

(At last we will just find that the circle become larger and larger..endless till the end of our life)

Today i wish to share about few things...

1) My lecturers...

1stly will talk abt my thermodynamics practical lecturer, mr LEE.....

The 1st day i met him was on my 1st trimester chemistry test, he was one of the examiner..

The 2nd time i met him was the 1st practical session in this trimester..

1st impression..he's that kind of knowledgeable in this field..

2nd impression..he's so strict( he wanted us to summit every report on the spot..Either full or or partial.....) * none of us like this method right??

Its already 6th week of our 2nd trimester as everyone stopped blaming and started to adapt

in his practical session...We learned the way to generate all the idea for our discussion,

learned all the ways to conduct the experiment precisely and consistence..

"....so, today is my last day with you all..."

"..shhhs,....why?...when..how??...."

"you all like me meh?....however, thanks for your coorperation.."

"sir, we just adapted ourself..."

"K, tidy up your things so that we can close the lab..."

( the last phrase that mr lee spoken yesterday)

Sudden feel complicated.......we lose to get info under a good lecture....

2ndly,Ms Chan..My ECS Tutor...

This morning i purposely met her to propose my idea of changing the new topic for my

presentation, But she not allow me to do so....

After convincing and bargained for a long time at campus and sending email...

She still not allow me to do so but im quite satisfy to have a such understood lecturer.

Even i know that i have to put in more efforts for my presentation...(The topic still the same ...)But im that kind of on the moon now...ahha

2) My ECS speech...

Im not kinda of proud but today i wnt proud to be myself....(anyway. i dont like to live under others ppl)

I managed to finish my outline in 2 hours time..yeah..and im goinng to have my speech outline today...(i means the script)

HOPEFULLy i can success to become the best presenter....As promise to Miss Chan..I wont let her disappointed....

3) MY 1st midterm...

It's almost finish just left one paper on monday...

Let me have a review on it....

Math test...29 out of 30....simply lose one mark as i didnt label the end point in my graph..

Bio...result not yet out but js hope it will kinda of satisfactory grade for me as i know that most of the people lose 6 marks because of answering the question without logical thinking...(included me)

Chemistry test....Gosh...stupid for mistake on naming the hydrocarbon...(don;t even want to know im tat kind of careless or not well prepared) By right i should strive more..

Thermodynamics...Gosh again for wrongly put the substances which is heat absorber in the calculation of hear releasor...stupid....( i detect my answer not logic on the spot but cant detect the mistake.Just that moment when i opened the examination hall door..."ting!!!" it;s come to brain but its too late..)

FINAL conclusion...

LOW YING FAN...

YOU ARE NOT WELL PREPARED

tough 2nd sem

It's has been the 6 weeks of 2nd trmister I stayed in Kampar , striving hard for my 2nd trimester..

It's totally different again!!

I found that i m still able to cope up the syllabus but the question is not that simple as i thought before..

I can't be very sure that whether I have maximize my efforts or none..

But i just know that since the 2nd trimester I even take a big rest in a day....

Today (yesterday since now is edy 1 am) I've just complete all the main subject mid term test ..

At 1st I planned to complete my Mathematics tutorial BUT i failed it..

(I‘m not kinda of lazy girl)

Just sudden feel that i have to complete my public speaking speech outline 1st as I planned to seek for Ms Chan advise tomorrow....

I hope that, really hope that she allow me to change my topic tomorrow as the previous topic failed to make me have the determination to continue it...

If so and so i will fail to get my audiences attention during my presentation...

Although the latest topic that I planned to share is quite a normal, common, formal topic...

But i really wish to share this( The ways of being a success and happy teen-.....)

the..... stand for something surprise that i have to 1st get permission from my tutor 1st...

Whatever, whenever...

Its a real tough period for me now...

I just can;t wait for next Wednesday to go back my hometown to meet all my belovesssssssssssssss...........

hahahah....

Well, it;s time to bed as tomorrow have to attend 8am lecture (just for extra , pretending hardworking huh>.<)

怎么办

我，以尝试努力，
可是偶尔怠慢的病症还是会发作，然而发现我还没100巴仙根据自己的时间表完成每天的目标。
有时真的好累，想想人生的意义何在。
不敢出去，因为害怕浪费分秒的时间，然而自己的一大突破，就是以减少对着电脑发呆的时间。
有时拼了，却觉得心有余而力不足。
人家就会说什么太压力，要求太高之类的。。。
然而这些都是借口。
我知道我的底不好，可是我深信后天的努力能补足一切。。真的我已尽力。。。
试问有谁不想当个有前途的人，当个受人肯定的好学生，当个称职的好女儿。。
然而我不是背负任何使命，只是我要改善自己的态度，改善我未来的生活。

我拚，还不是为了能光彩的毕业，拿到光彩的成绩单，让家人骄傲。。。
是啊，老爸说我的成绩只有自己知道，好处都归于自己，父母只是沾沾光。。。

可是，我真的很想让他们放心安心，让他们沾光更是我的荣幸。。
我说过的话绝对不是任何空头支票。。

人家说，颖凡说话雷声大雨点小，抱负大，付出少。。。。

可是，我努力时也是拿不到万众期待的成绩，
我的心会好受吗？？？

OBSTACLES

I know that and everyone know that's obstacles in diff stages in our whole life span...
But recently im kind of emo and hate with it...At 1st i was trying hard to accept it but i failed it..

Last sem i felt down once and i swear to climb up again..i swear and i really strive for this sem so hard...

Unpredictable...almost all of my lectures are so good..(good in state of explaining and teaching)
I thought i can score as high as i can in this sem..but it so so so...complicated.......

All of my sciences practical tutor are strict enough, they are famous in strict marking the reports..Is it fair to all of us??
absolutely no....
especially today i have attended my thermodynamics practical session....i hate it so much...
It's not only our class do the partial reports in group but it's almost all...so, this is nothing to be proud with or happy with..

WTH....we have to pass up all the full reports on the spot..@&#$^Z*^%^@#&%

Is it fair to us, i know it's a good way of training us..but..it totally not fair...
Others ppl can even complete their reports within one week and refer to a lot of research sources and even seek for some senior or lecturers advice...BUT how about us...
We even can;t refer and you think it is possible for us to get high marks within an hour???

NONO, i don't think so.....
We have to complete our experiment in that 2 hours session initially, but now...
Actually a student know how to calculate it...
A complicated experiment need almost an hour to complete it
So, it's just left an hour for us to analysis all the data, graph drawing, calculation and even discussion...
How if we get the negative result?? We even do not have much time to redo the experiment...

If and only IF we follow the track to finish the report..we might get about 14 marks while others can get 19 marks...
is it fair for us....
not fair...

We thought the report as course mark will aided us to get higher achievement in final,
but it;s absolutely wrong after the 1st sem i know that the reports mark will be pulled now if it is too high, and i have experienced it in my physical chemistry..
this time again another for thermodynamics...

Im totally exhausted with this kind of marking style without synchorization............

homesick

I dont ever know what should i do or when should i do...
Anything..
A weird feel sudden appear in my deep heart core...
Mom even asked me just now,"what happen to you?? No study mood??"
"still got gastric pain? still got feel like want to faint??"

Yeah..that's my mommy..great..i miss her badly and soundly...huh??>.<

This will be 2nd week in 2nd semester in UTAR. Seems everyone knew that a busy life will start by tomorrow....(see, see, how is the UTAr impression to all students)

YUP..I'm seriously homesick now, I planned to back my hometown during Deepavali festival..
Deepavali on 5th Nov (friday)
I plan to replace all my Thursday class (not much..just 2 class)hahahas....
I wish to back on wednesday after my class...

BUT, now i wish

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There will be NONONONON EXAM on wednesday and thursday.
hopefully my wish comes true..

My HOMESICK!!! getting worse especially yesterday the migraine visited me again..huh..
make me tired, dizzy and want to faint...


daddy, mommy, ahma, ah yuan and b, and oso minyen, ee thong..
i miss you all

中秋忆祖父

八年前的这一刻，
最敬爱的您走了。。

要不是它，
或许
这八年的中秋都能跟您渡过。。

如今，
我的胃隐隐作痛
有如八年前的今日，
您离开我们的那一刻，
我的胃也是作痛着。。。。

因为癌症，让您
无法与我们共度这佳节，
不只中秋，还有一切的一切。

妈妈说，
您合上眼之前，
给了一个暖暖的微笑。。

如今就只有过去的回忆。。

你宠着我，
甚至拿我没办法把我一手抱起，
再丢到篱笆外。。。

时而载我到这里那里看京剧，
还有我们祖孙俩哼着同一首潮州歌曲，
哼多少遍都不腻。。。
还有怕狗的我，
只能远远站在一处放狗喂食的傍晚。
还有在红毛丹树下，
用叶子当琴吹的那一刻。。。
还有我们祖孙俩共同爱吃的食物
（阿嬷的咸炒三层肉）
。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。
。。。。。
。。。
。。
。
如今这一切都是我回忆的一部分。。
每年的中秋，
我就会如此想念您。。

最爱的爷爷

始于第二学期

光阴飞逝，在金宝不知不觉已呆上一个学期。。
回顾我第一个学期，读书不够认真，不够勤劳
导致成绩只是差强人意。。。周围的人都太强了。。。。
要说他们不强也行，是自己太弱。。

不是要跟他人比较，是我根本没达到自己的目标。。
拿了一个不该拿的成绩。。
很多人说我太压力，要求太高。。。
或许就那少许的压力使我坐下来温习，当你来到这里，其实你会发现我要求并不高。。

常为自己找借口说读书方式不对，但其实我并非真正的努力。。

#我只能告诉自己这学期一定要更好，努力改掉所有的粗心和怠慢#

*当时光飞逝，我祈祷明天
曾经是懒散怠慢，曾经度日如年
我是如此平凡，却有如此不幸
我想说声对不起，在我第一学期的每一天*

*当我将生命中最黯淡的那一刻与你分担，
当我用生命中最沙哑的哭泣来陪伴你，
当我将心中的不满给你，在你最不耐烦的时候
让我忏悔，努力在接下来的每一天。。。。。*

diaries in my sem break (continued)

16TH
early in the morning, eethong, wanjoe and me decided to have a meet on breakfast time at 88.
Its a long long time that 3 of us nvr meet up together after spm.
Then we plan to have a short visit to GBA..When we reached there, MR king leong persuaded us to join the emo controlled talk...we just join for an hour as all of us have to rush back to complete our own task....
evening,
dad and mom fetch me to butterworth to buy a pair of long pants for me and purposely go for the nice curry mee as our dinner..not bad..but mom claimed that Alor Setar nicer...

17TH
Finally my dear promised to go sp with me..actually it's our class gathering but he can join too..hahhaa
evening its a tough period for me, shiying and yuanjie as we are busy planned for those who sudden plan to join us and those without transport...
night,
we have our gathering at Eternal Zone ,SP......
I feel great that i can spent a lot of time with my dear and also old classmate especially my best buddies, minyen and sinyi..
We also not missed out the chance to celebrate yuanjie bday.....
what a lovely couple when i saw him and chiahooi..hope that sweet sweet forever.....

around 11.30 we plan to go village mall....decided whether for movie or kbox...
but both plan failed as the kbox systems really bad enough..haha....
at least i got my dear to accompany me...ahha

reach home about 12.15am..its time to sleep

18th
gosh....whole day suffer from stomach ache ...nvr feel such pain before...
mom and dad seriously worried about me , my dear too...
they knew that im going back to kampar soon and so worried about my health ...
after seek for the doctor take the medicine i felt better.
the worse is after a nap i suffered from fever again...
gosh....at 1st today supposed shopping day for me.......

19th
busy packing my stuff now.....
tmr will be going back to kampar....

i miss my family and friends...
i miss you dear....
其实不想走，其实我想留

diaries in my sem break

My 1st sem breake start from 6 sept..till now is going to come to the end....
i just rmb on that day i reached my home abt 7 pm ...
ITs the time for my dinner with my family and 3rd aunty's family at DA ZHONG...

On 7th and 8th...
i spent all my time in my sweet sweet home.....to cook to help and drama...whatever......
7TH
I went GBA in the evening purposely for him..see him practice for drum as the "melody of life"singing competition was around the corner...
8TH
outing in sp....with elvish, yjie and eric..but so sorry that dear cant go as the rain was heavily enough until unable to fetch him...
have our lunch at oldtown....movie...then high tea at secret recipe...met yieyuan there too

9tTH
afternoon.....tried hard to persuade my brother follow us to KL..finally he went to..
haha....reached KL after the dinner time....quite tired..but feeled happy to meet up my relatives...
10th..almost all my cousins back to grandma house..then the few childish ppl (me, brother, cheryi ,cher ching, gary, yiqin, yihong, jacling) crazy felt in love with plants vs zombies.....hiak...

me and yiqin also addicted to our tvb drama......

spent few days there....

13th,
We decided to go back gurun....as tat day is my grandma bday....
We have a great celebration on tat night with my wenshao brother who back from France and also all cousin...
All family members attend that bday celebration at JADE GARDEN, SP except wenning sis who is far away at korea now....

14th,
morning --went gba to see my beloved kalyana mitra rehearsal for the MOL competition
night---start our journey for 2nd MOL....its a great competition with fun and all the spirit....

yeah...i love music we love music.....love to sing and play all sorts of instrument....
and put a hope on our 1st album...hope it comes true....

15th morning
have a jog from my taman to taman suria then dear fetch me for breakfast...
opps....its rain and we got to rush to GBA to hide from it..stupid PIG claimed that he will easy get into fever.....
night--went central square with my mom and finally i bought a purse and a pair of casual shoes....

结束

一个学期，终于在今早十一时的化学考试后结束了。。。
苦战许久，终于在今天走出考场的那一刻，看到同学们的笑容。。
那种，最纯的笑容，（哪怕只是一个轻轻的微笑）让人觉得，哇，太美了。
因为大家好久好久都没这样的展露自己最真的一面。。。

一个学期的结束，并不意味着我们的如此松懈。。
休息只是为了走更长远的路。。。（老套>.<）
事实就是如此。。。

这两个星期以来，我吃不消，睡不好。。
往往一闭上眼，方程式都会在脑海里转来转去。。好难熬。。。
虽然，我知道自己这次表现一点都没水准，
一） 准备不够
二）心情反复无常
三）生理+心里问题
四）读书方式不妥

没关系，做人不能太执着，只是有时真的很对不起父母和老师

放心吧，下学期，我会雪耻！！

（等待阿姨在我回家的当儿，最胡乱挥笔）

its time for me to rest a while...but not rest in my study

Well..last night have a busy shop in Tesco, Kampar without taking our dinner as we have to prepare for just now(last night,now its already 19 august)steamboat dinner...

Recently is the raining season so we really thanked and appreciated our class rep Stephen who will to fetch us here and there...

Last night is really a rushing night as we have to finish our lecture class around 8 pm then headed to Tesco for the steamboat's stuff...

And right on 18 August afternoon..i decided not to leave in campus but back my hostel to cook the soup and later just went back campus for my 4 pm chemistry tutorial....

i just remembered that after class dismissed me and ting ting rushed as fast as we could as we don't ever want to let ourselves caught in rain...(it's rained a while only)
hahaz...

I just knew that 3 of us ( me, ting ting and chu sing) busying for the preparation as we really worried the big big guys in our class not satisfy with what we had prepared....luckily that not such bad huh...
so happy that the food actually really too enough for them as they really unable to eat as much as we thought..haha.....

I just remembered they kept persuading me and tingting and ask both of us eat and eat but actually we are totally full already...

one gang of girls busy for their gossips and photo snapping.
one gang of guys busy for their pc game and also gambler....
I found that the relationships among all of the classmate getting closer and closer when the semester break is around the corner...

well,,,ntg much to mentioned ady as i'm really tired enough but satisfied with the results....
haha

and it's time for me to have a short rest then continue with the stressful syllabus...

Im going to seat for my final exam in 12 days time.....

bless me again....

* TZ20 ILY
** My dar...thanks for concerning me so much....hope to see you soon

停了

终于，
我们远距离的口角结束了。。。
亲爱的，我真的不想这样。。。。
明明就是很在乎，却要当着没事发生。

亲爱的，
请答应我，不要再让我担心，不要再让我有胡思乱想的机会。。
因为我的心，都是你。。
都跟你说了好多次，
不想融入任何人。。。

朋友说，是该放手，不该执着。。

是啊，真的有股冲动想放弃。。
但，总是不舍，也不甘心。。

好不容易等到我们期盼已久的那一刻却要放弃。。。

亲爱的，或许想我们达成的共识，我们要冷静面对，
真的或许最近我们都太忙太累了。。。

冷静的那一刻，觉得时间好漫长
只是知道，心里真正要的是一个肯定。。

你定下的，我只有少许的意见，就这样。。。

正如你所说，相信最重要。。。。信任，才能继续。。。
对啊，
什么都别想。。一起努力，

906 见！！
♡ⓛⓞⓥⓔ♡

moody bday

not my bday but his bday....
i plan a big surprise for him....but it burst into ntg
this is why i sad and angry..........
he totally forgot what he had promise and i scare he start to betray....

to him: jz bare in mind you should be responsible on what you had done
to her : bare in mind..........forget abt it......

finally + ting's bday celebration + gathering

Finally....
ALL my 1st sem mid test had come to the end..end with the mechanics paper which i sat it for today....
This time i think that i won't failed it but only can't score it well...
WELL..i had done my best preparation before the exam so whatever results i will just accept it and try to improve in final exam which is coming soon in 19 days time....

Bless me huh?!

After the test...we all ( whole TZ20) decided to have our dinner together..it's our 1st dinner together in this sem...poor is it?? ** Not our relationship not close but you know that since we enter this crazy U..our life is totally experienced a huge change (no time for us to gather)

So, this stupid or clever idea don't who raised it come to a truth...
We try to gather all classmate today for dinner...
2 main purposes.
a) earlier birthday celebration for ting ting
b) its really the time for us to gather..this sem gonna end soon and we might not same tutorial group....

Well...others tutorial groups have done many gathering since this sem began..jz our group...no chance to gather all...but finally we make it came true by today..not bad huh??

erm...We had our gathering at Kampar Station...We really had a wonderful time there..1st time I realized ..(that moment all of us only showing smiling face..so nice..without any burden and stress for reports, test and assignments)

A set of rice + desserts + drinks (coffee, honey lemon or ice lemon tea) with RM 6.90 .
Dinner sets which almost all of us ordered as it wont burst our wallet (although the plate is really big....plate only but we satisfy with the environment)

photo snapping before dinner..

my dear Sharlet ^^

some of the guys in our group who look so hungry in this photo...

Wayne who is the youngest in this big family had brought the whole gathering to a climax...as today jing zhe and wei hang dunno whether which flavour of cake suits us so they decide to buy 2...
1) the chocolate icing cake with strawberry fillings..( ting ting 1st choice)
2)the white icing cake with blue berry fillings...

BUT...their wise plan became a stupid wonderful memories for us as we urge ting ting to choose which cake she prefer..just like a cute girl choosing her barbie doll or a sweet girl choosing her future MR RIGHT...

haha....we bad huh??
im still waiting any of them to upload the video and photos that we snapped today so that i can post them to my blog for sharing...

erm...the time end up with the whole family photo shooting session and its time for us to go back as we really exhausted for this recently mid term test...

here is our dinner bill

well....photos will be uploading soon

忙里偷闲

后天就考试了，我好累，也很沉重。。。
晚餐就决定到外面吃，透透气也好，不想老是把自己封闭在这充满压力的房间里。。

原本决定到新开的little little吃，我们抵达时它却还未开始营业。

之后决定先到印刷店去复印课业。。。。
再到文具店去买水瓶。。因为我把水瓶留在课室，今早也懒得去拿，免得去了课室锁了碰钉子。。。星期一再去看吧。。（8成不见了）

这就是新买的水瓶
（原本选了一个紫色的，但紫色的太大了，不方便携带）

回到那间little little 时，它却满座了。。
我们只好去了---中间铺

这是我点的香辣咖喱鸡煲仔饭
（饭煮的有点软，味道还不错）

就这样。。。结束了今天的第二餐（忘了吃早餐）

我该继续拼了。。

**明天老豆生日，今年没法帮他庆祝，只能祝他生日快乐，身体健康。。。
爸爸我爱你。。。

the end of one stage is the beginning of the another stage

Today, i experienced my 1st group presentation in uni life...well, that's considered not bad for our 1st time..
Woke up early in the morning as i decided to go to campus by bus..well..everything gone smoothly ..
Just a little problem in this morning when we tried to set up the LCD projector..but at last the projector scared of me ..huh?!...>.<

I just remembered that when 4 of us chose this topic...should sports betting legalized in our country??I just wondered that the conflictssssss ( because there was a lot of conflicts happen among us)and also the arguments happened among us...whatever,It's finally come to the end..

I just don;t wanna disappoint my tutor..She's so kind to us..always ask us no worry and keep going on with our presentation...She claimed that do simple but smart stuff...
Well actually when she gave the comment... i caught nth as i really dunno the indirect comment is good or bad to us....
By right, it has already come to a stop...No matter how hard I felt when i strive for my power point, i feel happy now..As yesterday ms Amutha labeled my work with a positive tick...yeah...

Again..it's really come to the end...
Its the time for me to face my 2nd mid term test of chemistry, mechanics and mathematics..
well..i know that my 1st mid term was not so good so i really have to be very diligent to cope up everything..
What's i prepared now is not only for midterm..but for the final which will coming soon in 25 days time...

so...wish me good luck..
and i don even want my tears come out again....

my dad and mom..
i will prove it and will promise to take good care of myself...

最近的你 vs最近的我

人嘛，总是很自我。。。总是从我先说起。。。

最近的我，很少挥笔，不是懒得写，是不懂该怎么写。不写又过意不去，写了又啰里罗嗦。。。
近日，除了忙考试，就是忙课业，好久都没好好睡一觉。。确实很累，但，只要一躺下，脑子里总有一些些的方程式在盘旋着。。。

有时，我尝试安慰自己说，我已经很不错了，我已经能够掌握了。但往往想到打开练习题总有许许多多的问号，我真的很恨我自己，到临时关头，怎么还是提不起劲，啊。。。是不是女生怎么努力都拼不过男生？？
我承认，我更拼了，但是结果都不太乐观。。
师公上人说：有愿就有力。友人劝我是时候看开，是时候放松，可我就是办不到。。

朋友可以用短短的 一小时陪我复习好多课的物理，但是打开题目我就是不会。
或许我不是理科的料。。。也许吧。。多挨8个月，我应该可以暂时松懈一点。。。

好怀念家乡的蓝天。家里的每个角落。。。
周末从阿姨家回到宿舍，压力就悠然而生，不晓得为什么，只要踏入我的宿舍，看到我的书桌，还有一份份白色的笔记和课业，我的心就会立刻沉下十八尺。。好沉重。。。（虽然知道沉重不是用在这里，但我已想不到更好的形容词）

可想而知，写这篇的同时，脑子里是我呈现的稿子。。很不错的一心二用吧。

我的脾气有时会很烦躁，还好婷婷大人不会介意哦。。。
嗯。。。

你呢？最近还好吗？？
只知道上线不会遇到你，信息也越来越少，通话时间，话题都少了。。
只是在我压力时不禁会想起你。
有时，远距离的关系，让我发现原来我们彼此还不够了解，不够默契。。
你忙了球赛忙活动，可是确实忽略了我。。

只是害怕我们会打回原形。
你坚持说不，我也无奈的相信。。

但愿吧。。
你和我
我和你
都能为自己的目标，理想。。。奋斗出最美的成绩。。

祝福你和我

MISS ing❤

Today my baby went to camp...huh?!
sad sad....
why??
always busy for the useless and no standard camp...what for???
It's just a time wasting..which will neglect the homework and other more important stuff....

haiz....what to say..he went ady...
suddenly received his call this morning..i supposed should be happy,
BUT..it sounded sad...

as i started to miss him..and hope today is saturday..
I will feel insecure without his shoulder, without him by my side..

I miss you...
I promise to study smart and hard...and promise to finish all my stupid stuff in this 2 days time..
so that when you come back at least i can enjoy...

miss you my dear...i love you❤my dear...

FIFA world cup final 2010

Finished my tutorial attempt exercise by 11pm....waiting my dear sying to come....
Cherching claimed that he would watched the final match with his buddy and i eager to watch too..BUT..i have to wait for sying moreover no girl accompany me to watch...

At that disappointed moment,sying text to me and claimed that she won't stay with me as she had to watch the final with her friends..
YEah.....i promised to join their gang.....and i jz text to my sister sharlet told her she could returned my lap report the next day...Unexpected she wanted go for the mamak stall for the match too...yeah...

So....we need to to cycle but Alex and sharlet fetched me ans sying by their proton wira...wakakakak.....

We decided go out around 12.30am to book a seat for our own...unluckily...MM full..old n new GHANY oso crowded with those football fever....we went round and round patiently and finally we stopped our step at the press green stall..after waiting for minutes..yeah...we spotted a place and we jz sat there and order our beverages while waiting the match to start...

It just an excited feeling there...This is the 1st time I watched the match at hawker stall with a gang of friends....as i don wanna to miss the once forth years chance..and maybe this is the 1st and last time i watch FIFA with my university's frens....

The match finally started after 2.30am*m'sia hour...Its the war between holland n spain....
the game started n ended with various of yellow cards..while this match was going on a bit slow as the spain focused on attacked but it totally failed with the strong defence team of holland....
the miss out many chances to attack( for both team)...every shoot no matter free kick or side kick it make ppl disappointed...sigh...==

for the 1st half and 2nd half...none of a goal was scored..we were eager waiting for the penalty but..it sudden gave a chance for 30 minutes extra time....and it started to rain but it not heavy....

the football fevers keep on shouting and applause...For the 1st 15 minutes...the result remained the same...haiz....

Finally at 117'minutes....surprise A. Iniesta shoot a goal for spain...yeah.....they were sure to win....haha...the rained getting heavier and thus kevin fetch us home...

below are the analysis for yesterday match (reference from livescore)

Holland 0-1 Spain
shots on target : 6 - 5
shots off target : 6 - 13
possession (%) : 44 - 56
corner kicks : 6 - 8
offsides : 7 - 5
fouls : 28 - 19
yellow cards : 8 - 5
red cards : 1 - 0

reached home after 5am....continue today lecture about 10 am..haha.luckily i din felt asleep in lecture hall

1st midterm test

Recently, I was busy enough in preparing my 1st midterm test, it's suck...really..

This is the 1st time, i cry for test, black out in the exam hall..even wanted to rush out the exam hall at that particular moment..what can i concluded was, im not that smart..not that diligent...
even can labeled myself as "FAILURE'' in this stage...

I failed to do my best, black out twice and the stupid equation mistake..
I m getting worse than worse...
What can i do now...

I found that everything was not following my plan...what i have planned was totally dash..=.=
1. the time management.
2.my revision
3.my lab reportssssssssssss ( as the report will non stop given by lecture every week which mad all of us...really exhausted)
4.my assignment.

haiz...
nth much to write about..jz a damn busy life here...

wish myself always in the best of luck!!>.<....

人生转涙点

昨夜，想写，却写不出。。。
好累，不是疲累，而是我的心好累。。。
原来的我是何其的渺小，看到班上的同学个个都那么强，总觉得我好逊。。。
差透了，我跟几个女生再怎么拼，都拼不过。。
我们的策略错了，决定在这星期的考试后再重回战场，誓言必胜！！！

接到家人的电话，我哭了，好压力，只想跟妈妈撒娇，宣泄累积已久的压力。。。
才半个学期，我都累了，可是记得爸爸说过，做了决定就必须咬紧牙根撑过去·。。。
我一定会，肯定会。。。。

然而现在，我觉得精算学不是我的菜，或许明年会转去金融数学，这科算简单并不简单，新的科目何尝不是一个好的选择。。。老套地说一句；行行出状元。。应该适合我吧。。。
或许薪水不比精算来得高，但我宁可不要出来让人说女生不能在这行生存。。。

嗯。。我真的该更加努力。。
嗯。。现在先搞好先修班的课业吧。。。

为我自己，大声的说；加油

苦战

昨日，约了一大班朋友到我家-----做实验报告。

从六点到7点只是点了外卖，边等待，边聊天。。。
不知不觉，又来了几个朋友，约八时，开始打拼。。。

过程当中，边做又边聊，聊得起劲时大家就忘了手上的课业。。
直到有人喊停，大家才顿时回过神来，继续打拚。。
这过程反反复复了许许多多遍。
时间也是一去不复返，慢慢的，战友一个个都回去了。

结果只剩4个怪咖留下来（包括我）拼到深夜，
过了12am。。。

哇。。第一次。。
过程也不忘小休，再来一个“点心”时间。。。
聊聊一些废话。
拼到2am ++。。。
累了，3个怪脚回家了。。。
剩下我。。做了最后的冲刺。。3am。。我也就乖乖睡觉了。。

今早，起来也不太迟，精神还不错。
终于把课业赶完了。。

来到这里以后，方真正了解（时间不够用）
或许是spm后一直都很懒散，又或许上了大学后过得充实许多。

老实说，我还没真正开始努力。
可是近日的忙碌加上一点的努力，似乎比中学期间来得更多。

我，要精进，更要努力！！

（今天，其中一个怪咖还告诉我，今早5am才关灯就寝。。。）

*谢谢你我的室友，一个安慰，一个陪伴。。

*bb谢谢你。。一个电话，一个问候，我会更加努力
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╭╭ ⌒╮ ●╭○╮　
╰ ----╯ /█∨█\ 　
~~~~~~~~~ ∏~∏~~~~~~~~~~~

打败仗了

凌晨五点，
肚子痛得我打滚。
绞得很厉害。。

忍了许久，
终于爬了起来。
一次，躺下一次。
又再次爬起来。

3， 4，5，6
7，8，9，10

好多次。
我知道，自己食物中毒了。

开始怀疑自己的晚餐有问题。
不敢说，吃了两次的药，
好多了。

结果，它，
再次绞了。
好痛，原本不想上课,
结果，拿了请假信，
却死撑到学校。

今天的我笑不出，说不出
只有一个累字。

偶然发现，
好几位朋友都拉肚子，
原因就是昨天的午餐。

誓言：从此不到block H用午餐！！

崩溃

我，累了。。

原因是我从没努力过。。
以前的我，只是用小聪明，
懒散，怠慢。堕落。。

我
尝试努力
却不懂该怎么努力
除了压力，还是压力

我
让我老爸老妈失望过
我
让老师们失望过
我
辜负了自己
当梦想一次
两次三次破灭
。。。。。
我告诉自己
可以重来，可以努力
可以精进，可以成功

结果，
发现自己错了。
现时社会都是残酷的

所谓：适者生存

我真的很累。
不是拿累来当借口而不努力
而是不懂从何下手。
不懂怎样再去拼。。
祝福自己吧

*happy father's day

another weekend....time flies

Another weekend start and going to end soon...
This week..I'm home alone...all of my dear friends went back their hometown already..

Luckily...3rd aunty sudden gave me a call yesterday mentioned that my cousin sister will stay with me a night as they have urgent staff going north to kulim...

luckily im not home alone...

Last night, we had our dinner by calling the deliver as we are too tired..then we planned to complete our homework and study...but then, insects conquer my room...and we..decided to close the light n just sleep!!

We woke up 10am morning today..cleanning our room and having lunch at fire zone..yeah...

3.30---
followed aunty went back her house...then untill now..still blur with my bio report discussion...suck

feel hard to leave my dear friends

Today is a damn tired day for me...It's seems like not only me but many of my classmate complained about this..

We are tired..as we SQUEEZE our brain>>>to complete our Biology lab report...Its only a discussion part..but it suck us...

Today my feeling just abnormal and it's complicated..I found that i sudden lost control...

1. wenwen is going to leave us by tomorrow..she is going to kl teacher training centre for her kplsm..and oso Kevin....although I knowed wen wen just got 2 weeks time..but she's such a wonderful girl..hard to describe in details...She is so soft in her vocal, but look serious in lecture hall n tutorial...I like to look at her while she's really concentrate in doing a task..nice girl...after getting know she will leaving soon..grab opportunity take photo early in the morning

2. Our great organizer for almost every dinner...Elvish is going to leave us too ..far away to johor to persue her dream to become future teacher..I just know it today but unluckily I can't meet up with her tonight as my parents dropped down her to have dinner with me n cousin just now...sying said that she is too depend on shi ying already...Now..i miss her voice...because I miss the time that everyday at least can see her...

3. My study..sudden just remembered that if my GPA not more than 3.00...my scholarship will be terminated..gosh....
I hope it will not happen..But the class rep, Stephen and JIng Zhe always remind me in this as they planned so and so to do after being terminated..haiz...speechless..

Well I have nth much to write about...just feel extremely exhausted this few days...taken before lecture

after lunch with wen wen at block G

before entering the lab...

does he look alike with some one??

Striving hard for our report...

the best weekend after schooling day

昨天，跟三姨一家人去了怡保一趟，结果慈伊（表妹）就在我的房间小住一晚。（因为今天她要跟我妈去外婆家）
由于她要看戏，虽然我看过了《下一站。幸福》，可是为了不受她的诱惑就以最快的速度，做完我的功课。嗯，七七八八了。就陪他一起看。。。

今早起来不算迟，拉了室友，三人行，一块前往唯一最靠近的--金晶冰屋去吃早点。。

在等待食物的当中。。

慈伊的咖哩面

我的椰浆饭

随后，回到家，接到妈妈的信息表示会在午餐之前到，跟表妹也赶着洗澡，继续收看连续剧。。

不久家人到了。。。。他们带给我很多很多东西哦。。见到阿麽，爸爸和妈妈，好是开心，终于见到他们了。。

阿麼准备的鸡精+燕窝

妈妈的爱心粽子。。。只剩三个

随后，爸带我们到旧街场去吃午餐。。。午餐的菜肴好大好大盘，明明我们就点了三人份，结果还是吃得很饱很饱。。

之后他们就继续开车前往吉隆坡去了。。

五点后，表弟就来教我们做数学和物理。。

之后，晚餐就在家解决啦。。。吃粽子咯。。。


结论：整天除了做功课就是吃！

brush up...

This is the second Thursday I survive in Kampar..Seems like everythings going smooth but not exactly smooth now....

1--My English language really terrible...I even do not have chance to speak in English except request information in certain departments or a short chat with lecturers...and sometimes only speak it when meet my " banana" friends..Now, I just learning my language via viewing the online papers....

2--My syllabus...I found that I m getting worse and couldn't catch up...I feel that if i do not revise after the lecture..I will totally forget and have to start from zero..

3--My attitude...NOW..im trying very hard to be a student with discipline and diligent ...
I really want to strive as I wnt to release all my parents burden and don't wanna to have any debt after I graduate...

我不再是以前的我

我要精进！
我要努力！
上了大学后，我发现刘颖凡，你逊色了。。
你好差劲！

我才发现：
自己的学业明显退步，跟不上进度。。
就连简单的问题，都不能解决。。

我的人际关系，领导能力都一团糟。。
说话的技巧差透了，
没有说服力，没有组织能力。。

今天，好想彻彻底底地宣泄我几年来的情绪，
我做人的原则，我要坚守，
有人认为我在扮清高，但我非这样！
有人认为，我是马屁精，
跟每个老师的关系都很好，
其实我没有刻意讨好，只是我做回我的本分，
成为班上同学跟老师之间的桥梁。。
试想想，开玩笑我不在乎，但玩笑也是有限的。
但大家需要我替他们去找老师帮忙时，我几时拒绝过
只是争取到了，大家就一起开心；
争取不到却还要找大家指指点点，
其实有谁懂，我还要看老师们的脸色，
夹在中间的感受谁了解呢？

算了，错误当经验吧。
我要振作，
从新出发，
找回原来的自己！

不要再被人当傻瓜，
找回自己最初的方向，与目标。
再次启动我的人生！

PIT STOP 8--lecture

I suppose to post the blog by jz now....

But in one finger click..the blog that i hav almost done,,,dash....
feel disappointed now...haiz...

yesterday was my 1st lecture in lecture hall DDK4..the subject of mechanics..it make me shock while we realised that our lecture did not know how to use computer in appropriate way..haha...we decided to change our lecture next sem...this semester..huh..forget about it....>.<

Today is my 2nd lecture day..Physical Chemistry lecture by Mr. SK Ng in lecture hall DDK2..
SUCk....I almost forgot the importance of this subject...I found that i really have to brush up all the topics in time...haiz...Mr Chong had told us before that Chemistry is the most important subject in the world...BUT at that time we just keep on laughing and laughing..
BUT now..i JUST realized...AM I LATE???


Since I had a flash in all subjects lecture notes.I really regret...This is why i feel disappointed and shameful now and this is because I did not pay fully attention in upper form and i just revised it for facing my exam...
I did not ever try to have better understanding in certain topics so i feel blank now although the lecture notes look so easy and familiar to me..
REGRETFUL ...arrrgh >.<

I had a promise to myself NOW..I want to have it..I have to strive hard and hard as i did not score well in my past SPM.. I want an A not only in this semester but this whole trimester..no matter the subject and topics are easy, intermediate or hard...
i really WANT it,.,..
I NEED IT

PIT STOP7---ice breaking n telematch

Well..this suppose to write on yesterday ..but sorry i really tired and felt asleep although still on9 at night..

early in the morning we rush for the 1st bus to herritage hall for ice breaking and telematch programme..At 1st we thought not much of participants but till 8.30 as many as freshman of utar arrived..although they were late..but the committee members were very will to wait for them..
After the group division.. i was divided to Faci 19..yeah..
A team which i thought quite bored..but in the process i really have fun with all the members and group leader...maybe most of us considered anak kampung as most of us came far way from kedah n penang....

In the process..we have to overcome 10 stations tasks and each task we have to battle with the opposition..
Although we won for 6 station..not bad huh?? we still cant get the prize among 20 groups...
It's really a great experieence for me..
as we show good team work in the whole process..and still contact on facebook after the programme and even meet for dinner and today lunch...
But i thought i was too active yesterday..haha..

We decided not to go for campus and library tour as we already know the position of the blog and certain important places such as cafeteria, library and some department offices..

During the dinner, we decided to have our meal at Seng Yip ...then chat with others know what our friend's courses and ambition..
they are our 1st batch of friends in utar..i oso met wayne who is the 1st buddy i know who same tutorial with me..><

well..tat;s all...

**1st--sorry to you that yesterday make you misunderstand..i promise i wont betray..
**2nd-- this morning has dim sum among 4 girls...
**3rd--jz came back from tesco for lunch and grocery..

PIT STOP6---学校一日游

今早逃过了orientation...睡到饱了才起床。。
九点，三人行到路口吃早餐。。
哇色。。。。。。。这里的东西超大份的，吃都吃不完。。
早点后，走着走着边决定要到校园去走走看看，认识新环境 ^^

回家了长裤，拿了笔记型电脑就走向车站。
我们打算到H楼就装备我们的电脑设置，以方便在学校各个角落都能上网。。
我们误打误撞，询问了再询问，结果都是碰了钉子。。脚好酸，好累哦。。
结果我们还是来来回回的进出图书馆。。
那里好大，好舒服。。由于天气严重酷热，在冷气的图书馆对我们来说是继续停留的最好去处。
从图书馆玻璃窗透出去，是多么迷人的风景。
我反反复复的说了。我很想4年都在这里完成我的学业。。

下午，室友跟着他家人回到IPOH，只剩我一人忙着洗衣抹地。
还好，过后茵来陪我。
我们聊了好久，她呢。。只是躺在床上研究菜单，想象着她的晚餐，哈哈！！

过后，佳约了我们去踏脚车。三人行

绕到了学校又绕到了公园，凉风习习，加上动人的景色，美妙的晚霞。。。这里真的好美好美。。
候鸟一群群停在湖上的树丛，一会儿飞在天边，一会儿掠过水面。。。赞叹啊。。。

公园景色****其中一个石的艺术

小桥流水人家

我跟 佳^^

随后就到YUMYUM去享用晚餐。。又是吃得好饱好饱的一餐。。
看来这次减肥计划将要泡汤了。。

PIT STOP5--orientation

Early in 6 am...I have to wake up to prepare to go for our orientation..
Around 7 .20....the bus arrived..the bus stop is crowded with utar new bloodssssss..haha....
and so unluckily the 1st bus was fully seated and i have to wait for the second bus....
8.30 am...the orientation staRT....
nth special and just the SRC students and other seniors briefing were quite good and not too boring..other session make us felt asleep and bored...

take our photo while the small break^^

We just hoped for the lunch hour to treat our stomach.huh>.<
unfortunately the whole cafeteria was crowded and we have to queue and wait for a long time to get our meal..isshhhh..damn hot the whether and the environment make us fell uncomfortable...

after the lunch we just joined another session of orientation..then..after the break..you couldn't see us in the Herritage Hall but we were in the bus stop..hehe..as we skipped for another 2 sessions...wise huh?!

Later on just as usual washed our cloths and bathed....
6pm..yeah..
actually we planned for a jog
BUT..we walk to the night market for our dinner...
we oso having our food at shiying's house...haha
after a rest n bath..now..
i'm really uncomfortable as my nose become sensitive again..as it started to block..and my troat itchy now and start to cough...555 T.T

PIT STOP4--arriving in utar..at my room now!!

Early in the morning,we start our journey far away from Gurun to Kampar....
We had our dim sum at Raja Uda...then our way straight lead to kampar...

Around 10 am..i check in my room..after some procedures..finally i got my room key..
Then...I start my cleaning job with the help of my daddy n mommy....
fast and efficient!!!haha

After that, we had our lunch at kampar..juzt a simple meal but it quite delicious as i felt very hungry....hehe

later on...my daddy fetched me go back UTAR campus to register and take my schedule n T shirt...

Later on..still have a walk in tesco......

4pm....my daddy n mommy felt very tired already and so they decided to back to gurun and rest....

NOW...i'm sitting infront my laptop..
just done my bathing and clothes washing..
haha....

my wardrobe and my desk........

my bed

PIT STOP3--leaving...away from home

Today is my last day in my hometown before persuing my tertiary study..
Although Kampar is not that far, I still will miss everyone and everything here..

This evening, my best buddy minyen had a visit to me. It's her 1st time enter my room although she had came to my house for times and times..We all started our chatting ..its took about 2 hours...our topics were more about our future, and some gossip too..hehe..

Later on, I had my dinner with my uncles from Bukit Mertajam..yeah..not bad still can having a delicious meal before my study U life...haha

i swear again to strive for 4 flat..BUT sure i will miss my family n friends...
i LOve you all...

last minute

Since morning. I was busy packing my things and luggage to UTAR...
Nothing much special but keep cleaning this and that..

After my mom came back from school, she drove me to aneka to buy somethings to complete my packing job..and finally..hooray!! 100 % done my packing...
my heart is damn feeling complicated now.. I wonder why and I wonder how.maybe is my 1st time to leave my sweet sweet home ,family and friends for quite a period of time...

my mood now ( excited?bored?disappointed?regret?)huh?! i don't ever know..It's the 1st time i have such feeling..

2 hours before,i just came back from eternal zone restaurant, having our steamboat buffet..yeah...quite full but satisfied..(although penang more worth for us to having our meal)
haha..
But quite disappointed too as my lovely brother cannot join us as he was undergoing his volleyball training in co curricular center..

**Thnx mom and dad for spending so much for my daily expenses n my shoes..i really appreciate it..

I love you

♥

daddy and mommy in my deep heart core and i will prove it with my result soon..i swear

X人生交叉点X

谁的人生没有抉择？又有谁能在每次的抉择中，做出最对的选择？

昨天到今天，我亲爱的弟弟获知被选为初选排球州手，正在懊恼着是否该参与选拔还是放弃选择学业。
结果，他选择了选拔，但他誓言一定会兼顾学业，我希望他真的能够不负众望，更相信他必能成功！

（在洗澡当儿，我偷偷掉泪，因为舍不得离开我弟，虽然我星期二才到金宝，但是我弟集训到星期三）
过后，我就开车到佛教会去参与kl菩提工作坊与我们一同举办的佛曲交流会。上车前我一再一再的挥手向弟弟告别,转过头泪又掉了下来，没有我他应该会寂寞，没有人为他打点一切，没有人听他诉说心事。我何尝不也是如此？在音乐分享的当儿，交流中也发现身为凡夫的我们无时无刻都在抉择，然而面对抉择时必须坦然勇敢去面对，而非逃避。
只能确定问题，接受问题，再设法解决问题。
随后我一一的向各位老师道别，得到他们的祝福，很是感恩。健良老师还千叮万嘱要我参与佛学会，希望我不会与佛教脱节。
还收到老师的祝福信息，真的很感恩..

过后去探望钢琴老师，聊了数小时。。才发现老师也在面对抉择，抉择她宝贝女儿将来的教育，还有他的搬迁问题。
啊，这就是人生。。。

晚饭过后，像往常一样收看最后一集的大爱剧场---《爱的练习题》
之后跟父母谈了很多，爸妈问我是否会后悔选上精算学这条路，我说我有兴趣，我会努力!
其实心里有点担心自己是否能够应付，是否能够面对接下来的压力跟挑战！但我相信。。我深信。。

回忆昨天跟弟弟哼着'告诉自己什么最重要，什么该放手，什么该不屈不饶。。。。’

PIT STOP 2--packing and shopping

Well,4 days to go if calculate from today...
This morning.my dad asked me to wake up early in 7.30am as i promised him to help on today blood donation at registration counter.
Around 8.15am, i followed dad to blood donation event to help out..well,nth much happen there..just felt very bored..and luckily met up cheeyit n weisin there..at least had something to talk about...

BACK to my topic..>.<..
around 4pm,both my parents fetched me to sp central square to prepare some things which i need it in my UTAR life later..
They bought a pair of casual sport shoes for me, change my watch leather,buy some things..(grocery)hehe..that's all..
It take us almost 3 hours in that shopping complex.
Around 7.30 pm, we had our dinner home as grandma has prepared it earlier.
Then i just cleared n cleaned my things as fast as possible so that i can rest n online earlier..

WELL..it;s almost done.YEah..
till now just left my clothes haven't done packing..i can said that 50percent is done..fast huh?!haha

沉思中

好几天没挥笔了，一方面忙着收拾房间，一方面忙着沉思。。。
昨天，收到彤的信息，他说忙着收拾东西，大考至今快半年了不想再堕落。。哈哈
的确，我这大半年来到底做了什么有意义的事，充实与否，自己心知肚明。。咳。。
我就这样浪费了大半年的时间，只有在这星期忙着收拾房间时，才觉得我至少有个“人”样。。
收拾当儿难免会回忆在我成长路程中的每个转角处，发生过的人事物。。。。
看到自己从小到大的照片，每个摄影地点，相片中的人物。。。看到生日及佳节朋友送的贺卡。。
熟悉的往事就一幕一幕涌进脑海。。。啊。。我真的长大了。。
然而再仔细地想，我真的成长了吗？
十八岁的人，可有十八岁的思想？
我，还是三不五时跟妈硬嘴，还是一点一点就会哭，到底几时才能真真实实的长大？

昨天下午，约了他，彤根徐老师见面，当着升学前的聚会，人有悲欢离，合月有阴晴圆缺。。。
我刹那间觉得舍不得。。
舍不得我跟彤14年的友情
舍不得老师的关心及陪伴
更舍不得他，害怕经不起距离的考验，然而他已说了好多好多遍的“放心”

是时候收拾心情念书了，这次我不能再开空头支票。
一定要努力，答应了家人我会努力，成长。。。
答应了朋友要照顾自己，要更有自信，回到当初最有魄力的我。
答应弟弟一定会成功，答应了他会以努力证明一切。。

是时候成长了

PIT stop 1--payment and room rental

early in the morning..5.50 am..mom asked me to wake up..I supposed to wake up on 6am..but today my brother have to go for volleybaLL state competition..that's why my mom still worried and keep advising until i woke up..
After some sort of preparations..we start our journey..We had our breakfast in hometown..
Later just travel along highway to Kampar,Perak...(UTAR is our destination)
Along the way..my parents keep advising me about self protection, self motivation and a lot...
I listened but without any answered,just "en, ah. erm.oh" >.<
around 9 smthing, we already arrived at Kampar..
My dad as the driver decided to lead us to UTAR campus to settle the registration payment and tuition fee scholarship agreement first.
We go to Division of finance to settle the payment and then go to administration department to hand in my document n payment receipt and then get my student ID number..
YEah...everything was settled..At the moment,when my dear daddy was signing the cheque,i cross my heart..haha.sweared i will strived the 1st year for my foundation to let myself stand a chance for to ful scholarship in bachelor degree program of actuarial science..although my science subjects is not that powerful..

Later on, we went to danish housing company to settle our room rental matter..
After visiting the show house..we decided to book tsing hua house..for double room..
the rental is rm215...quite satisfied..(FAITH..so lucky..i met a girl from penang...and we decided to share the same room)
haha
our house number is 1377..yeah..not bad..very convinience there..
NOTHing much to write..just wish ..no matter how,.my dreams will come true..

waiting=hopeless??

Just received a call...the number is so strange..take a deep breathe and answered it..
NOPE..IT's NOT from JPA...put a hope..at least....
an hour later..
My uncle called me,the news was good or bad??huh?!
JPA has been released since yesterday..Alor star ppl got it for engineering course..my godness..when is my turn,oOR..i'm still waiting such a idiot here..maybe all the scholars have received the call...sad..hopeless...still pray for it..just hope that my dream comes true..
another minute later..i received a text..a kl gal got the scholars to european country for pharmacy..dash..
but my dream still there...i m not that kind of greedy person..js a hope..a dream..only 1...ONE,....i hope i can success

难忘的孝亲节

两天没、上线了。。我老爸忘了汇钱付款，，哈哈
昨天就是母亲节，人家嘛总是在部落格写下一整天的日记，而我总是慢半拍，不好意思啦，因为昨晚回到家已经太累了。
昨天不仅是母亲节也是全球浴佛节及慈济日。一早，我就守在大爱电视旁观赏台湾的现场转播。就这样看到下午。。。哈哈
大约五点，我们就到集合站去集合，乘搭着我们的列车到吉打的新建静思堂去。
顿时发现，妈妈好会说话。从优雅园，待大德上车后就断断续续的说到目的地去，原来，妈妈还有幽默的一面，这是我十八年来第一次发现的，我就坐在怡倩旁边，静静地听着妈妈的叮咛，第一次听得那么入神。
车上九成的大德都是女众，或许所有的妈妈们都想体验一个不一样的母亲节吧。。
吃着便当，望着车外的风景，不知不觉也到了静思堂。
或许，我们到得有点早。不久我便拉着妈妈到亲恩区，打算给妈妈一个不同的母亲节礼物。在台上，听着司仪的指示，我奉茶给妈咪喝。之后还端上一盆暖暖的清水，为母亲大人洗脚，按摩。。。才发现妈妈的双腿有点粗，是岁月在她脚上画下了一粗一细的痕迹。这是我的心暖暖的，相比之下洗脚的清水显得冷冰冰的。当下，泪水已在我的眼眶打滚着，只是我还是忍着忍着。之后还给妈妈一个爱的拥抱，这就是我今年送给妈妈的母亲节礼物。。

大约七时，全体大德都到集合点列队，浴佛仪式便正式开始。。。。
虽然场面不比吉隆坡的来得大，但是众人合心一致，使场面庄严得很。
大众都毫无怨言，等待着自己浴佛的时刻，合着掌，嘴里不断唱诵佛号。
轮到自己礼佛时心里满满的感恩，望着宇宙大觉着服慰这大地的琉璃佛像，心里是声声都是感动与感恩。

之后大家都以一颗虔诚恭敬的心，完成了浴佛的三个步骤：
礼佛足——当手心轻轻点在香汤上，心里祈愿着好多好多，让我联想到的不只是感恩佛陀，而是更应该手心向下。
接花香——轻轻拿了一朵白色茉莉花，心里已是满满的欢喜。
祝福吉祥——出班后，接过了菩提叶，心里就好像跟随佛陀的足迹，觉得很踏实。
之后又到了绕佛绕法的时候。在志工的带领下，我们像是回到了佛陀时代，忆念佛陀以及僧伽历经千辛万苦，弘扬佛法普渡众生的脚步。每一步都是稳重，踏实，每一步都是感恩，感激。。。
（静寂清澄 志玄虚漠 守之不动 亿百千劫）唱诵着无量义经的经文。先是右足，再左足。众人一起踏着整齐的步伐，完成了绕佛绕法
接着唱诵了祈三愿以及回向，浴佛大典便告一段落。。

佛诞日和母亲节在一起，很有意义。想想佛陀的爱和母亲的爱很相似，母亲爱子女，为子女的付出是不顾生命，而佛陀爱众生如子女，为众生的付出，也是不惜生命的付出。例如摩耶夫人为了生育，冒着高龄产妇的危险，把孩子生下来，她的生命只有短暂的几天，多伟大的母爱啊！一如在医院里，常看到挺着大肚子的母亲，虽然痛但是脸上还是挂着幸福的笑容，这就是母爱！所以要庆祝母亲节。

但是佛诞日更要普天同庆，因为佛陀是个智慧的大觉悟者，他把天地宇宙万象的道理说出来，辅导、教化无数众生，让每一个人都懂得道理，懂得如何做人，懂得生命的价值，瞭解生命的来去。

我们一起祈祷，我们一起发愿：愿人心净化
社会祥和
天下无灾难

（不能详细表达自己的心情，唯能说百闻不如一见）
待收到师伯的照片后，再上载吧。。。

http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/160043?tid=1
http://tw.tzuchi.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=3371%3A2010-05-09-09-17-02&catid=107%3Ataiwan&Itemid=554&lang=cn