沉思中

好几天没挥笔了，一方面忙着收拾房间，一方面忙着沉思。。。
昨天，收到彤的信息，他说忙着收拾东西，大考至今快半年了不想再堕落。。哈哈
的确，我这大半年来到底做了什么有意义的事，充实与否，自己心知肚明。。咳。。
我就这样浪费了大半年的时间，只有在这星期忙着收拾房间时，才觉得我至少有个“人”样。。
收拾当儿难免会回忆在我成长路程中的每个转角处，发生过的人事物。。。。
看到自己从小到大的照片，每个摄影地点，相片中的人物。。。看到生日及佳节朋友送的贺卡。。
熟悉的往事就一幕一幕涌进脑海。。。啊。。我真的长大了。。
然而再仔细地想，我真的成长了吗？
十八岁的人，可有十八岁的思想？
我，还是三不五时跟妈硬嘴，还是一点一点就会哭，到底几时才能真真实实的长大？

昨天下午，约了他，彤根徐老师见面，当着升学前的聚会，人有悲欢离，合月有阴晴圆缺。。。
我刹那间觉得舍不得。。
舍不得我跟彤14年的友情
舍不得老师的关心及陪伴
更舍不得他，害怕经不起距离的考验，然而他已说了好多好多遍的“放心”

是时候收拾心情念书了，这次我不能再开空头支票。
一定要努力，答应了家人我会努力，成长。。。
答应了朋友要照顾自己，要更有自信，回到当初最有魄力的我。
答应弟弟一定会成功，答应了他会以努力证明一切。。

是时候成长了

PIT stop 1--payment and room rental

early in the morning..5.50 am..mom asked me to wake up..I supposed to wake up on 6am..but today my brother have to go for volleybaLL state competition..that's why my mom still worried and keep advising until i woke up..
After some sort of preparations..we start our journey..We had our breakfast in hometown..
Later just travel along highway to Kampar,Perak...(UTAR is our destination)
Along the way..my parents keep advising me about self protection, self motivation and a lot...
I listened but without any answered,just "en, ah. erm.oh" >.<
around 9 smthing, we already arrived at Kampar..
My dad as the driver decided to lead us to UTAR campus to settle the registration payment and tuition fee scholarship agreement first.
We go to Division of finance to settle the payment and then go to administration department to hand in my document n payment receipt and then get my student ID number..
YEah...everything was settled..At the moment,when my dear daddy was signing the cheque,i cross my heart..haha.sweared i will strived the 1st year for my foundation to let myself stand a chance for to ful scholarship in bachelor degree program of actuarial science..although my science subjects is not that powerful..

Later on, we went to danish housing company to settle our room rental matter..
After visiting the show house..we decided to book tsing hua house..for double room..
the rental is rm215...quite satisfied..(FAITH..so lucky..i met a girl from penang...and we decided to share the same room)
haha
our house number is 1377..yeah..not bad..very convinience there..
NOTHing much to write..just wish ..no matter how,.my dreams will come true..

waiting=hopeless??

Just received a call...the number is so strange..take a deep breathe and answered it..
NOPE..IT's NOT from JPA...put a hope..at least....
an hour later..
My uncle called me,the news was good or bad??huh?!
JPA has been released since yesterday..Alor star ppl got it for engineering course..my godness..when is my turn,oOR..i'm still waiting such a idiot here..maybe all the scholars have received the call...sad..hopeless...still pray for it..just hope that my dream comes true..
another minute later..i received a text..a kl gal got the scholars to european country for pharmacy..dash..
but my dream still there...i m not that kind of greedy person..js a hope..a dream..only 1...ONE,....i hope i can success

难忘的孝亲节

两天没、上线了。。我老爸忘了汇钱付款，，哈哈
昨天就是母亲节，人家嘛总是在部落格写下一整天的日记，而我总是慢半拍，不好意思啦，因为昨晚回到家已经太累了。
昨天不仅是母亲节也是全球浴佛节及慈济日。一早，我就守在大爱电视旁观赏台湾的现场转播。就这样看到下午。。。哈哈
大约五点，我们就到集合站去集合，乘搭着我们的列车到吉打的新建静思堂去。
顿时发现，妈妈好会说话。从优雅园，待大德上车后就断断续续的说到目的地去，原来，妈妈还有幽默的一面，这是我十八年来第一次发现的，我就坐在怡倩旁边，静静地听着妈妈的叮咛，第一次听得那么入神。
车上九成的大德都是女众，或许所有的妈妈们都想体验一个不一样的母亲节吧。。
吃着便当，望着车外的风景，不知不觉也到了静思堂。
或许，我们到得有点早。不久我便拉着妈妈到亲恩区，打算给妈妈一个不同的母亲节礼物。在台上，听着司仪的指示，我奉茶给妈咪喝。之后还端上一盆暖暖的清水，为母亲大人洗脚，按摩。。。才发现妈妈的双腿有点粗，是岁月在她脚上画下了一粗一细的痕迹。这是我的心暖暖的，相比之下洗脚的清水显得冷冰冰的。当下，泪水已在我的眼眶打滚着，只是我还是忍着忍着。之后还给妈妈一个爱的拥抱，这就是我今年送给妈妈的母亲节礼物。。

大约七时，全体大德都到集合点列队，浴佛仪式便正式开始。。。。
虽然场面不比吉隆坡的来得大，但是众人合心一致，使场面庄严得很。
大众都毫无怨言，等待着自己浴佛的时刻，合着掌，嘴里不断唱诵佛号。
轮到自己礼佛时心里满满的感恩，望着宇宙大觉着服慰这大地的琉璃佛像，心里是声声都是感动与感恩。

之后大家都以一颗虔诚恭敬的心，完成了浴佛的三个步骤：
礼佛足——当手心轻轻点在香汤上，心里祈愿着好多好多，让我联想到的不只是感恩佛陀，而是更应该手心向下。
接花香——轻轻拿了一朵白色茉莉花，心里已是满满的欢喜。
祝福吉祥——出班后，接过了菩提叶，心里就好像跟随佛陀的足迹，觉得很踏实。
之后又到了绕佛绕法的时候。在志工的带领下，我们像是回到了佛陀时代，忆念佛陀以及僧伽历经千辛万苦，弘扬佛法普渡众生的脚步。每一步都是稳重，踏实，每一步都是感恩，感激。。。
（静寂清澄 志玄虚漠 守之不动 亿百千劫）唱诵着无量义经的经文。先是右足，再左足。众人一起踏着整齐的步伐，完成了绕佛绕法
接着唱诵了祈三愿以及回向，浴佛大典便告一段落。。

佛诞日和母亲节在一起，很有意义。想想佛陀的爱和母亲的爱很相似，母亲爱子女，为子女的付出是不顾生命，而佛陀爱众生如子女，为众生的付出，也是不惜生命的付出。例如摩耶夫人为了生育，冒着高龄产妇的危险，把孩子生下来，她的生命只有短暂的几天，多伟大的母爱啊！一如在医院里，常看到挺着大肚子的母亲，虽然痛但是脸上还是挂着幸福的笑容，这就是母爱！所以要庆祝母亲节。

但是佛诞日更要普天同庆，因为佛陀是个智慧的大觉悟者，他把天地宇宙万象的道理说出来，辅导、教化无数众生，让每一个人都懂得道理，懂得如何做人，懂得生命的价值，瞭解生命的来去。

我们一起祈祷，我们一起发愿：愿人心净化
社会祥和
天下无灾难

（不能详细表达自己的心情，唯能说百闻不如一见）
待收到师伯的照片后，再上载吧。。。

http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/160043?tid=1
http://tw.tzuchi.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=3371%3A2010-05-09-09-17-02&catid=107%3Ataiwan&Itemid=554&lang=cn

忽略

看到手机显示信息的符号（不用说，也知道是他发的）.....
“我觉得你最近忽略我。。。”
天啊，我熟悉的一句话，好熟悉。。。。
这不就是我经常像你说的吗？有时是因无理取闹，有时是因为你真的忽略我了。
但，这一次看到，眼眶却湿了。。我真的忽略你了。
我不能以忙碌当借口，因为我并不忙
我不能以不打扰你当借口，因为我从来都不打扰你。。
我不懂还能说什么，自己“当机”了一会儿，
只能回复“对不起，我会尽量多陪你”
或许最近你太忙。忙功课，忙考试，忙练球，忙活动。。。。。
我却是那么的不体谅。。。或许吧，你说的对，我真的忽略了你。。




对不起但是我答应，下不为例。^^

Times cafe..OUR cafe's time

We did something quite normal but abnormal last night. 3 of us suppose 4 of us gathering at times cafe....
Around 8.30 we reached there and started with our non stopping chat. Maybe, because we have not meet with each other quite a long term. Luckily SY asked us to order the food and beverage first before we chat..hah!!
While waiting our meal to be served we chat a lot of secretive matters but which are not the secret aspects among us.
Suddenly we started to rewind our mind back to our secondary Form 1 life till From 5. And because of her absent we found that we will going to lose this friend, but actually we are not willing to lose her who labeled as "our gang".
Maybe her mind has changed without our concern and lose contact OR maybe she has getting nearer to another "gang''=.=
Who knows that after SPM 4 of us still gathered at YIPIN...haih....life...
while chatting we will looked at that empty chair(the seat which we left it for her)..haih..
Later on, we started to discuss about our future, our dreams, our life....seems like long time we do not have any pillow talk. Really appreciate the time we together, the scene of our secondary school life( how we met, how we gathered, how we crazy together and even cried in the corridor together....more and more) flashed back once again...
We had a promise, no matter how far we are, we are still FRIENDS^^
and also asked MY don't scare to contact us if she faced any difficulties in her college life.(MY is the kind of big sister among for 4 us because she is the eldest among us.She is the one who always conduct our gathering and the one who always endure others temper.)

Actually 4 of us are not the same "kaki" while we were in primary school. LIFE and FATE chained us together till now.
I just hope that we are BEST FRIEND forever..
It's really hard to find MY and SY as my buddy.


*OUR girl's talk till 11.45pm..haha!!

thanks friends and all the best for 4 of us

happy 3 yrs old

1st may!!yesterday i realized tat i woke up 3smthing early in the morning...can't sleep at all....fellt uncomfortable...my nose.troat...haiz..make me suffered all the times...
Early 7 .15 am in the morning, i was ready for the appointment with dear Mr..
we have a joke in the nearest housing area..then cycled around....(to extand our time,so that we can stay together longer)>< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgybhwun1AHnH23kvh2TrVTQDWSULXYPJSGzjZR6gqpoeQ0o3zbxS6oUaytKrQC0TcK39lkYWejCWe04uiHHPrLCi9gy1JQxFRljZLaTfBBIdTBeZNpUn_66AAzGBQLIAgPqZbXbzRo1Cp5/s1600/love8.jpg">

*thanks for your persistence n concern in this 3 yrs...HAPPY 3 yrs old!!! wakakaa...