OBSTACLES

I know that and everyone know that's obstacles in diff stages in our whole life span...
But recently im kind of emo and hate with it...At 1st i was trying hard to accept it but i failed it..

Last sem i felt down once and i swear to climb up again..i swear and i really strive for this sem so hard...

Unpredictable...almost all of my lectures are so good..(good in state of explaining and teaching)
I thought i can score as high as i can in this sem..but it so so so...complicated.......

All of my sciences practical tutor are strict enough, they are famous in strict marking the reports..Is it fair to all of us??
absolutely no....
especially today i have attended my thermodynamics practical session....i hate it so much...
It's not only our class do the partial reports in group but it's almost all...so, this is nothing to be proud with or happy with..

WTH....we have to pass up all the full reports on the spot..@&#$^Z*^%^@#&%

Is it fair to us, i know it's a good way of training us..but..it totally not fair...
Others ppl can even complete their reports within one week and refer to a lot of research sources and even seek for some senior or lecturers advice...BUT how about us...
We even can;t refer and you think it is possible for us to get high marks within an hour???

NONO, i don't think so.....
We have to complete our experiment in that 2 hours session initially, but now...
Actually a student know how to calculate it...
A complicated experiment need almost an hour to complete it
So, it's just left an hour for us to analysis all the data, graph drawing, calculation and even discussion...
How if we get the negative result?? We even do not have much time to redo the experiment...

If and only IF we follow the track to finish the report..we might get about 14 marks while others can get 19 marks...
is it fair for us....
not fair...

We thought the report as course mark will aided us to get higher achievement in final,
but it;s absolutely wrong after the 1st sem i know that the reports mark will be pulled now if it is too high, and i have experienced it in my physical chemistry..
this time again another for thermodynamics...

Im totally exhausted with this kind of marking style without synchorization............

homesick

I dont ever know what should i do or when should i do...
Anything..
A weird feel sudden appear in my deep heart core...
Mom even asked me just now,"what happen to you?? No study mood??"
"still got gastric pain? still got feel like want to faint??"

Yeah..that's my mommy..great..i miss her badly and soundly...huh??>.<

This will be 2nd week in 2nd semester in UTAR. Seems everyone knew that a busy life will start by tomorrow....(see, see, how is the UTAr impression to all students)

YUP..I'm seriously homesick now, I planned to back my hometown during Deepavali festival..
Deepavali on 5th Nov (friday)
I plan to replace all my Thursday class (not much..just 2 class)hahahas....
I wish to back on wednesday after my class...

BUT, now i wish

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There will be NONONONON EXAM on wednesday and thursday.
hopefully my wish comes true..

My HOMESICK!!! getting worse especially yesterday the migraine visited me again..huh..
make me tired, dizzy and want to faint...


daddy, mommy, ahma, ah yuan and b, and oso minyen, ee thong..
i miss you all

中秋忆祖父

八年前的这一刻，
最敬爱的您走了。。

要不是它，
或许
这八年的中秋都能跟您渡过。。

如今，
我的胃隐隐作痛
有如八年前的今日，
您离开我们的那一刻，
我的胃也是作痛着。。。。

因为癌症，让您
无法与我们共度这佳节，
不只中秋，还有一切的一切。

妈妈说，
您合上眼之前，
给了一个暖暖的微笑。。

如今就只有过去的回忆。。

你宠着我，
甚至拿我没办法把我一手抱起，
再丢到篱笆外。。。

时而载我到这里那里看京剧，
还有我们祖孙俩哼着同一首潮州歌曲，
哼多少遍都不腻。。。
还有怕狗的我，
只能远远站在一处放狗喂食的傍晚。
还有在红毛丹树下，
用叶子当琴吹的那一刻。。。
还有我们祖孙俩共同爱吃的食物
（阿嬷的咸炒三层肉）
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如今这一切都是我回忆的一部分。。
每年的中秋，
我就会如此想念您。。

最爱的爷爷

始于第二学期

光阴飞逝，在金宝不知不觉已呆上一个学期。。
回顾我第一个学期，读书不够认真，不够勤劳
导致成绩只是差强人意。。。周围的人都太强了。。。。
要说他们不强也行，是自己太弱。。

不是要跟他人比较，是我根本没达到自己的目标。。
拿了一个不该拿的成绩。。
很多人说我太压力，要求太高。。。
或许就那少许的压力使我坐下来温习，当你来到这里，其实你会发现我要求并不高。。

常为自己找借口说读书方式不对，但其实我并非真正的努力。。

#我只能告诉自己这学期一定要更好，努力改掉所有的粗心和怠慢#

*当时光飞逝，我祈祷明天
曾经是懒散怠慢，曾经度日如年
我是如此平凡，却有如此不幸
我想说声对不起，在我第一学期的每一天*

*当我将生命中最黯淡的那一刻与你分担，
当我用生命中最沙哑的哭泣来陪伴你，
当我将心中的不满给你，在你最不耐烦的时候
让我忏悔，努力在接下来的每一天。。。。。*

diaries in my sem break (continued)

16TH
early in the morning, eethong, wanjoe and me decided to have a meet on breakfast time at 88.
Its a long long time that 3 of us nvr meet up together after spm.
Then we plan to have a short visit to GBA..When we reached there, MR king leong persuaded us to join the emo controlled talk...we just join for an hour as all of us have to rush back to complete our own task....
evening,
dad and mom fetch me to butterworth to buy a pair of long pants for me and purposely go for the nice curry mee as our dinner..not bad..but mom claimed that Alor Setar nicer...

17TH
Finally my dear promised to go sp with me..actually it's our class gathering but he can join too..hahhaa
evening its a tough period for me, shiying and yuanjie as we are busy planned for those who sudden plan to join us and those without transport...
night,
we have our gathering at Eternal Zone ,SP......
I feel great that i can spent a lot of time with my dear and also old classmate especially my best buddies, minyen and sinyi..
We also not missed out the chance to celebrate yuanjie bday.....
what a lovely couple when i saw him and chiahooi..hope that sweet sweet forever.....

around 11.30 we plan to go village mall....decided whether for movie or kbox...
but both plan failed as the kbox systems really bad enough..haha....
at least i got my dear to accompany me...ahha

reach home about 12.15am..its time to sleep

18th
gosh....whole day suffer from stomach ache ...nvr feel such pain before...
mom and dad seriously worried about me , my dear too...
they knew that im going back to kampar soon and so worried about my health ...
after seek for the doctor take the medicine i felt better.
the worse is after a nap i suffered from fever again...
gosh....at 1st today supposed shopping day for me.......

19th
busy packing my stuff now.....
tmr will be going back to kampar....

i miss my family and friends...
i miss you dear....
其实不想走，其实我想留

diaries in my sem break

My 1st sem breake start from 6 sept..till now is going to come to the end....
i just rmb on that day i reached my home abt 7 pm ...
ITs the time for my dinner with my family and 3rd aunty's family at DA ZHONG...

On 7th and 8th...
i spent all my time in my sweet sweet home.....to cook to help and drama...whatever......
7TH
I went GBA in the evening purposely for him..see him practice for drum as the "melody of life"singing competition was around the corner...
8TH
outing in sp....with elvish, yjie and eric..but so sorry that dear cant go as the rain was heavily enough until unable to fetch him...
have our lunch at oldtown....movie...then high tea at secret recipe...met yieyuan there too

9tTH
afternoon.....tried hard to persuade my brother follow us to KL..finally he went to..
haha....reached KL after the dinner time....quite tired..but feeled happy to meet up my relatives...
10th..almost all my cousins back to grandma house..then the few childish ppl (me, brother, cheryi ,cher ching, gary, yiqin, yihong, jacling) crazy felt in love with plants vs zombies.....hiak...

me and yiqin also addicted to our tvb drama......

spent few days there....

13th,
We decided to go back gurun....as tat day is my grandma bday....
We have a great celebration on tat night with my wenshao brother who back from France and also all cousin...
All family members attend that bday celebration at JADE GARDEN, SP except wenning sis who is far away at korea now....

14th,
morning --went gba to see my beloved kalyana mitra rehearsal for the MOL competition
night---start our journey for 2nd MOL....its a great competition with fun and all the spirit....

yeah...i love music we love music.....love to sing and play all sorts of instrument....
and put a hope on our 1st album...hope it comes true....

15th morning
have a jog from my taman to taman suria then dear fetch me for breakfast...
opps....its rain and we got to rush to GBA to hide from it..stupid PIG claimed that he will easy get into fever.....
night--went central square with my mom and finally i bought a purse and a pair of casual shoes....

结束

一个学期，终于在今早十一时的化学考试后结束了。。。
苦战许久，终于在今天走出考场的那一刻，看到同学们的笑容。。
那种，最纯的笑容，（哪怕只是一个轻轻的微笑）让人觉得，哇，太美了。
因为大家好久好久都没这样的展露自己最真的一面。。。

一个学期的结束，并不意味着我们的如此松懈。。
休息只是为了走更长远的路。。。（老套>.<）
事实就是如此。。。

这两个星期以来，我吃不消，睡不好。。
往往一闭上眼，方程式都会在脑海里转来转去。。好难熬。。。
虽然，我知道自己这次表现一点都没水准，
一） 准备不够
二）心情反复无常
三）生理+心里问题
四）读书方式不妥

没关系，做人不能太执着，只是有时真的很对不起父母和老师

放心吧，下学期，我会雪耻！！

（等待阿姨在我回家的当儿，最胡乱挥笔）