苦战

昨日，约了一大班朋友到我家-----做实验报告。

从六点到7点只是点了外卖，边等待，边聊天。。。
不知不觉，又来了几个朋友，约八时，开始打拼。。。

过程当中，边做又边聊，聊得起劲时大家就忘了手上的课业。。
直到有人喊停，大家才顿时回过神来，继续打拚。。
这过程反反复复了许许多多遍。
时间也是一去不复返，慢慢的，战友一个个都回去了。

结果只剩4个怪咖留下来（包括我）拼到深夜，
过了12am。。。

哇。。第一次。。
过程也不忘小休，再来一个“点心”时间。。。
聊聊一些废话。
拼到2am ++。。。
累了，3个怪脚回家了。。。
剩下我。。做了最后的冲刺。。3am。。我也就乖乖睡觉了。。

今早，起来也不太迟，精神还不错。
终于把课业赶完了。。

来到这里以后，方真正了解（时间不够用）
或许是spm后一直都很懒散，又或许上了大学后过得充实许多。

老实说，我还没真正开始努力。
可是近日的忙碌加上一点的努力，似乎比中学期间来得更多。

我，要精进，更要努力！！

（今天，其中一个怪咖还告诉我，今早5am才关灯就寝。。。）

*谢谢你我的室友，一个安慰，一个陪伴。。

*bb谢谢你。。一个电话，一个问候，我会更加努力
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打败仗了

凌晨五点，
肚子痛得我打滚。
绞得很厉害。。

忍了许久，
终于爬了起来。
一次，躺下一次。
又再次爬起来。

3， 4，5，6
7，8，9，10

好多次。
我知道，自己食物中毒了。

开始怀疑自己的晚餐有问题。
不敢说，吃了两次的药，
好多了。

结果，它，
再次绞了。
好痛，原本不想上课,
结果，拿了请假信，
却死撑到学校。

今天的我笑不出，说不出
只有一个累字。

偶然发现，
好几位朋友都拉肚子，
原因就是昨天的午餐。

誓言：从此不到block H用午餐！！

崩溃

我，累了。。

原因是我从没努力过。。
以前的我，只是用小聪明，
懒散，怠慢。堕落。。

我
尝试努力
却不懂该怎么努力
除了压力，还是压力

我
让我老爸老妈失望过
我
让老师们失望过
我
辜负了自己
当梦想一次
两次三次破灭
。。。。。
我告诉自己
可以重来，可以努力
可以精进，可以成功

结果，
发现自己错了。
现时社会都是残酷的

所谓：适者生存

我真的很累。
不是拿累来当借口而不努力
而是不懂从何下手。
不懂怎样再去拼。。
祝福自己吧

*happy father's day

another weekend....time flies

Another weekend start and going to end soon...
This week..I'm home alone...all of my dear friends went back their hometown already..

Luckily...3rd aunty sudden gave me a call yesterday mentioned that my cousin sister will stay with me a night as they have urgent staff going north to kulim...

luckily im not home alone...

Last night, we had our dinner by calling the deliver as we are too tired..then we planned to complete our homework and study...but then, insects conquer my room...and we..decided to close the light n just sleep!!

We woke up 10am morning today..cleanning our room and having lunch at fire zone..yeah...

3.30---
followed aunty went back her house...then untill now..still blur with my bio report discussion...suck

feel hard to leave my dear friends

Today is a damn tired day for me...It's seems like not only me but many of my classmate complained about this..

We are tired..as we SQUEEZE our brain>>>to complete our Biology lab report...Its only a discussion part..but it suck us...

Today my feeling just abnormal and it's complicated..I found that i sudden lost control...

1. wenwen is going to leave us by tomorrow..she is going to kl teacher training centre for her kplsm..and oso Kevin....although I knowed wen wen just got 2 weeks time..but she's such a wonderful girl..hard to describe in details...She is so soft in her vocal, but look serious in lecture hall n tutorial...I like to look at her while she's really concentrate in doing a task..nice girl...after getting know she will leaving soon..grab opportunity take photo early in the morning

2. Our great organizer for almost every dinner...Elvish is going to leave us too ..far away to johor to persue her dream to become future teacher..I just know it today but unluckily I can't meet up with her tonight as my parents dropped down her to have dinner with me n cousin just now...sying said that she is too depend on shi ying already...Now..i miss her voice...because I miss the time that everyday at least can see her...

3. My study..sudden just remembered that if my GPA not more than 3.00...my scholarship will be terminated..gosh....
I hope it will not happen..But the class rep, Stephen and JIng Zhe always remind me in this as they planned so and so to do after being terminated..haiz...speechless..

Well I have nth much to write about...just feel extremely exhausted this few days...taken before lecture

after lunch with wen wen at block G

before entering the lab...

does he look alike with some one??

Striving hard for our report...

the best weekend after schooling day

昨天，跟三姨一家人去了怡保一趟，结果慈伊（表妹）就在我的房间小住一晚。（因为今天她要跟我妈去外婆家）
由于她要看戏，虽然我看过了《下一站。幸福》，可是为了不受她的诱惑就以最快的速度，做完我的功课。嗯，七七八八了。就陪他一起看。。。

今早起来不算迟，拉了室友，三人行，一块前往唯一最靠近的--金晶冰屋去吃早点。。

在等待食物的当中。。

慈伊的咖哩面

我的椰浆饭

随后，回到家，接到妈妈的信息表示会在午餐之前到，跟表妹也赶着洗澡，继续收看连续剧。。

不久家人到了。。。。他们带给我很多很多东西哦。。见到阿麽，爸爸和妈妈，好是开心，终于见到他们了。。

阿麼准备的鸡精+燕窝

妈妈的爱心粽子。。。只剩三个

随后，爸带我们到旧街场去吃午餐。。。午餐的菜肴好大好大盘，明明我们就点了三人份，结果还是吃得很饱很饱。。

之后他们就继续开车前往吉隆坡去了。。

五点后，表弟就来教我们做数学和物理。。

之后，晚餐就在家解决啦。。。吃粽子咯。。。


结论：整天除了做功课就是吃！

brush up...

This is the second Thursday I survive in Kampar..Seems like everythings going smooth but not exactly smooth now....

1--My English language really terrible...I even do not have chance to speak in English except request information in certain departments or a short chat with lecturers...and sometimes only speak it when meet my " banana" friends..Now, I just learning my language via viewing the online papers....

2--My syllabus...I found that I m getting worse and couldn't catch up...I feel that if i do not revise after the lecture..I will totally forget and have to start from zero..

3--My attitude...NOW..im trying very hard to be a student with discipline and diligent ...
I really want to strive as I wnt to release all my parents burden and don't wanna to have any debt after I graduate...

我不再是以前的我

我要精进！
我要努力！
上了大学后，我发现刘颖凡，你逊色了。。
你好差劲！

我才发现：
自己的学业明显退步，跟不上进度。。
就连简单的问题，都不能解决。。

我的人际关系，领导能力都一团糟。。
说话的技巧差透了，
没有说服力，没有组织能力。。

今天，好想彻彻底底地宣泄我几年来的情绪，
我做人的原则，我要坚守，
有人认为我在扮清高，但我非这样！
有人认为，我是马屁精，
跟每个老师的关系都很好，
其实我没有刻意讨好，只是我做回我的本分，
成为班上同学跟老师之间的桥梁。。
试想想，开玩笑我不在乎，但玩笑也是有限的。
但大家需要我替他们去找老师帮忙时，我几时拒绝过
只是争取到了，大家就一起开心；
争取不到却还要找大家指指点点，
其实有谁懂，我还要看老师们的脸色，
夹在中间的感受谁了解呢？

算了，错误当经验吧。
我要振作，
从新出发，
找回原来的自己！

不要再被人当傻瓜，
找回自己最初的方向，与目标。
再次启动我的人生！

PIT STOP 8--lecture

I suppose to post the blog by jz now....

But in one finger click..the blog that i hav almost done,,,dash....
feel disappointed now...haiz...

yesterday was my 1st lecture in lecture hall DDK4..the subject of mechanics..it make me shock while we realised that our lecture did not know how to use computer in appropriate way..haha...we decided to change our lecture next sem...this semester..huh..forget about it....>.<

Today is my 2nd lecture day..Physical Chemistry lecture by Mr. SK Ng in lecture hall DDK2..
SUCk....I almost forgot the importance of this subject...I found that i really have to brush up all the topics in time...haiz...Mr Chong had told us before that Chemistry is the most important subject in the world...BUT at that time we just keep on laughing and laughing..
BUT now..i JUST realized...AM I LATE???


Since I had a flash in all subjects lecture notes.I really regret...This is why i feel disappointed and shameful now and this is because I did not pay fully attention in upper form and i just revised it for facing my exam...
I did not ever try to have better understanding in certain topics so i feel blank now although the lecture notes look so easy and familiar to me..
REGRETFUL ...arrrgh >.<

I had a promise to myself NOW..I want to have it..I have to strive hard and hard as i did not score well in my past SPM.. I want an A not only in this semester but this whole trimester..no matter the subject and topics are easy, intermediate or hard...
i really WANT it,.,..
I NEED IT